A way to help drop debt, help social security and benefit people!

As a loyal american I look at not only the situation of my president but of my country as well. The talk of the town is the debt crisis and how the country is going backwards on the debt number in which it is in the trillions. I once said that it's our responsibility as not on democrats but as black people to help President Obama and our fellow amercians through these times. So as I look at the debt situation and as I look at what the republicans would like to cut back and what President Obama is fighting so steady on, I tried to come up with something that makes since to us all democrat, republican, independent, and non voter. I look at it as our country being a great country for it's people and, also as our people being comfortable with being lazy, but do be advise I have no studies and or specific numbers or how this will help the debt I again say this is just a thought. I look at the banks and housing situation and say why not come up with a deal to combine the banks situation with available housing, and the social security recipients, with our hard working youth with nursing degrees all in a melting pot building retirement homes for current ssi members and those who want to release from ssi, or moving them into a vacant retirement situation with comfortable living and love, all those willing first of course will lose a social security check but gains everything else, as far as a community area, with maybe a shopping center and a pharmacy where there would be next to little travel for those who don't need it, again I have no numbers this is just a thought to help release the strain on the debt crisis and the people in everyday crisis, while backing President Obama vision while using republicans approach again "just a thought"

Lost

Lol I don't know why I started this blog, as I look back on it it only looks like I'm hurting my self, it's ok though it's a habit we gotta break.name this one lost because that's what I am I'm lost no sense of direction or guidance, to proud to beg for help and the few who can, just not looking for help, in my mind there are tones of things that go on, from is this the right move will Erevaner make it, what's next, what's better what's worst what's worth it what do I really want, how can I really help not only them but me, when does my reasons become an excuse, am I being pushed or tested do I have to Kill any man over just thoughts alone, why do I have such hateful thoughts,why do I have no one around me worth being around, am I stuck or am I just on some b.s why is it where ever I go nothing goes right. Why am I so hard on me, why is my picture the blurrier picture why am I so strong for a world I do not live in but for my everyday life it's so hard to breathe, why didn't I wait, why didn't I be as stunning and as charming as I seem to, why do it feel like being shitted on is some kind of enjoyment, why do I care what others say, why am I not trying as hard as I once was, when, did I ever see a sign of en trace or did I create one, why do everybody think I'm going crazy, did I create a world that don't exist do I think the see me and they really don't, or have they really been watching me since they read my name,am I wrong for wanting the baptist church to fight for it's young like other churches, am I wrong for feeling the way I feel about her, I feel like imstupid for not even being able to stand a female friendship because of how bad I want this relationship. Not only want it but want it to work, am I wrong because it feels like imgetting looked passed and I just allow it and go get right back in line, am I wrong that my feelings will allow me to feel like a fool but won't allow me to broadcast any more, am I wrong for just not knowing, not knowing where IRS going where it is ends. Where it begins am I wrong for counting a single day until my heart and my both feel as though I'm loved. Am I wrong for the dates I don't keep up with, am I wrong feeling like I'm programmed to write this, like its wanted or needed but in return I just get to wonder, am I wrong for being so comfortable with mediocre way and things that I'm stuck in a mediocre life, it feel like I showed my all and in return my weaknesses sometimes wins over my strength, sometimes I wish I tried hard, sometimes I wish I tried , well I'm not gonna say never because, I really really want to marry her, nah like really, and that why I'm stuck, that's why I'm lost because I have to be so sure she's the one I'll go brain dead till very second I'm sure she's not, that's why I hold my breath to pass out, to see if shell be there when I wake up, that's why I'm daydreaming and having conversations with her when she ain't here, I had to see if she was the one and she had to see if I was and ihope to god I am, I put myself in a icky situation. I wiped away my support system because they didn't support this and I have no intentions on turning back, that's why I've locked my self inside homes in just let my inside eat through that's why slowed down on taking pictures or commenting on them because I'm just not sure what I'm doing at times. I don't wanna know but it's like you want me to know and I'm losing the signals I'm losing the message I'm losing the reasons why I forgot who I was and I'm ok with that because il be able to find me. But if I lose you I don't know if il be able to find the strength to pretend im not crazy forever. I won't go crazy won't kill myself, but if I had to I would ask every female that made you worry to kill me. Im not gonna lie I doubt because of how it was presented, how I was presented how I am unable to get over the fact that I might be wrong about how or who I am. I was lost up until the day I find you, if ever I do I once was lost but now I'm found, words mean nothng if these words had no meaning

To whom ever reads

Last post was to her but the typo being lazy and not making sure it was perfect shows what kind of love, I doubt you know and you know why. I hope my insecurities didn't scare you off, I sit and I cream myself why do you think she never why do you think she went all the way to afrcia to sit on that man, why do you think after you 50 mil post to 50 do you think she got exposure on her 50 mil adventures. Then I look and see the times she loved you so much, then I pray she never stops loving me that way, and pray that she forgives me for being ignorant I don't know how I can show my love through these words until we meet again. I see you and I hear you and that's what the hardest to get over the hardest to understand if it is this real and this significant why would it stop why should it stop, a question her? And distance me never ever talking to you that night we froze and I look for peace of mind with communication I want to talk to you about life with you the life I promised you and how I want to gove you that life how want to make sure you are my queen that you are my forever let me stand solid with my thoughts because it's most that I fear that these are just thoughts I thought I heard I thought you loved I thought those were to me, this man that I have found in men looking for you is a man that Ive never seen it's a man that only owes that's all I will ever do is owe, owe you for your love for your for smile for your time and your silent reach I don't know. It's takes to be a lot I have to do more for you and by you, for me and by me, I fear not being the only man in the world you'll I'm not a hater I would love to see you happy, but I know I can make you happy, they want me to be more but this career choice, I don't want to be nothing other than a rapper, artist, I am your prince charming. Lol I mean that, you are an amazing and that's just from a year of observation, I apologize for how close and hard the devil rides but I will break and shake em, please don't forget please don't love without me and if you do don't love mediocre love love hard love like you love me and know I am coming, I'm just on this path day dreaming about you. Hoping I haven't lost praying that I don't get on your to the point where I have been before I pray these are the hardest times ever I pray I can be yours and you mine pray that I don't offend you family or that I have sent off that impression I love you yo #realtalk