Friday, July 22, 2011

A way to help drop debt, help social security and benefit people!

As a loyal american I look at not only the situation of my president but of my country as well. The talk of the town is the debt crisis and how the country is going backwards on the debt number in which it is in the trillions. I once said that it's our responsibility as not on democrats but as black people to help President Obama and our fellow amercians through these times. So as I look at the debt situation and as I look at what the republicans would like to cut back and what President Obama is fighting so steady on, I tried to come up with something that makes since to us all democrat, republican, independent, and non voter. I look at it as our country being a great country for it's people and, also as our people being comfortable with being lazy, but do be advise I have no studies and or specific numbers or how this will help the debt I again say this is just a thought. I look at the banks and housing situation and say why not come up with a deal to combine the banks situation with available housing, and the social security recipients, with our hard working youth with nursing degrees all in a melting pot building retirement homes for current ssi members and those who want to release from ssi, or moving them into a vacant retirement situation with comfortable living and love, all those willing first of course will lose a social security check but gains everything else, as far as a community area, with maybe a shopping center and a pharmacy where there would be next to little travel for those who don't need it, again I have no numbers this is just a thought to help release the strain on the debt crisis and the people in everyday crisis, while backing President Obama vision while using republicans approach again "just a thought"

Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Lost

Lol I don't know why I started this blog, as I look back on it it only looks like I'm hurting my self, it's ok though it's a habit we gotta break.name this one lost because that's what I am I'm lost no sense of direction or guidance, to proud to beg for help and the few who can, just not looking for help, in my mind there are tones of things that go on, from is this the right move will Erevaner make it, what's next, what's better what's worst what's worth it what do I really want, how can I really help not only them but me, when does my reasons become an excuse, am I being pushed or tested do I have to Kill any man over just thoughts alone, why do I have such hateful thoughts,why do I have no one around me worth being around, am I stuck or am I just on some b.s why is it where ever I go nothing goes right. Why am I so hard on me, why is my picture the blurrier picture why am I so strong for a world I do not live in but for my everyday life it's so hard to breathe, why didn't I wait, why didn't I be as stunning and as charming as I seem to, why do it feel like being shitted on is some kind of enjoyment, why do I care what others say, why am I not trying as hard as I once was, when, did I ever see a sign of en trace or did I create one, why do everybody think I'm going crazy, did I create a world that don't exist do I think the see me and they really don't, or have they really been watching me since they read my name,am I wrong for wanting the baptist church to fight for it's young like other churches, am I wrong for feeling the way I feel about her, I feel like imstupid for not even being able to stand a female friendship because of how bad I want this relationship. Not only want it but want it to work, am I wrong because it feels like imgetting looked passed and I just allow it and go get right back in line, am I wrong that my feelings will allow me to feel like a fool but won't allow me to broadcast any more, am I wrong for just not knowing, not knowing where IRS going where it is ends. Where it begins am I wrong for counting a single day until my heart and my both feel as though I'm loved. Am I wrong for the dates I don't keep up with, am I wrong feeling like I'm programmed to write this, like its wanted or needed but in return I just get to wonder, am I wrong for being so comfortable with mediocre way and things that I'm stuck in a mediocre life, it feel like I showed my all and in return my weaknesses sometimes wins over my strength, sometimes I wish I tried hard, sometimes I wish I tried , well I'm not gonna say never because, I really really want to marry her, nah like really, and that why I'm stuck, that's why I'm lost because I have to be so sure she's the one I'll go brain dead till very second I'm sure she's not, that's why I hold my breath to pass out, to see if shell be there when I wake up, that's why I'm daydreaming and having conversations with her when she ain't here, I had to see if she was the one and she had to see if I was and ihope to god I am, I put myself in a icky situation. I wiped away my support system because they didn't support this and I have no intentions on turning back, that's why I've locked my self inside homes in just let my inside eat through that's why slowed down on taking pictures or commenting on them because I'm just not sure what I'm doing at times. I don't wanna know but it's like you want me to know and I'm losing the signals I'm losing the message I'm losing the reasons why I forgot who I was and I'm ok with that because il be able to find me. But if I lose you I don't know if il be able to find the strength to pretend im not crazy forever. I won't go crazy won't kill myself, but if I had to I would ask every female that made you worry to kill me. Im not gonna lie I doubt because of how it was presented, how I was presented how I am unable to get over the fact that I might be wrong about how or who I am. I was lost up until the day I find you, if ever I do I once was lost but now I'm found, words mean nothng if these words had no meaning

Friday, July 8, 2011

To whom ever reads

Last post was to her but the typo being lazy and not making sure it was perfect shows what kind of love, I doubt you know and you know why. I hope my insecurities didn't scare you off, I sit and I cream myself why do you think she never why do you think she went all the way to afrcia to sit on that man, why do you think after you 50 mil post to 50 do you think she got exposure on her 50 mil adventures. Then I look and see the times she loved you so much, then I pray she never stops loving me that way, and pray that she forgives me for being ignorant I don't know how I can show my love through these words until we meet again. I see you and I hear you and that's what the hardest to get over the hardest to understand if it is this real and this significant why would it stop why should it stop, a question her? And distance me never ever talking to you that night we froze and I look for peace of mind with communication I want to talk to you about life with you the life I promised you and how I want to gove you that life how want to make sure you are my queen that you are my forever let me stand solid with my thoughts because it's most that I fear that these are just thoughts I thought I heard I thought you loved I thought those were to me, this man that I have found in men looking for you is a man that Ive never seen it's a man that only owes that's all I will ever do is owe, owe you for your love for your for smile for your time and your silent reach I don't know. It's takes to be a lot I have to do more for you and by you, for me and by me, I fear not being the only man in the world you'll I'm not a hater I would love to see you happy, but I know I can make you happy, they want me to be more but this career choice, I don't want to be nothing other than a rapper, artist, I am your prince charming. Lol I mean that, you are an amazing and that's just from a year of observation, I apologize for how close and hard the devil rides but I will break and shake em, please don't forget please don't love without me and if you do don't love mediocre love love hard love like you love me and know I am coming, I'm just on this path day dreaming about you. Hoping I haven't lost praying that I don't get on your to the point where I have been before I pray these are the hardest times ever I pray I can be yours and you mine pray that I don't offend you family or that I have sent off that impression I love you yo #realtalk

Wednesday, March 9, 2011



"The greatest rapper of all time died on march 9th"

today is a sad day one of the greatest of all time, who designed and gave a voice to hip hop and rap and carried into a day and age where nothing else motivated drove and pumped life into urban americans. to make a long story short R.I.P B.I.G we miss you love you and more than anything need you (HIP HOP)

" daily poem " the words that give me cheer

Tuesday, March 8, 2011

"i love this song" Aubrey Wood.

www.ourstage.com


About Aubrey Wood Bio:
Aubrey first learned to play guitar when she was just twelve years old and has devoted a large part of her life and focus since then toward refining her musical skills and pursuing her own compositions. By the eighth grade, Aubrey had written and recorded many songs by laying tracks down one-by-one using simple production tools and posting some of her work to MySpace and YouTube. At the end of Aubrey’s freshman year, she posted her original song, “Heart”, to MySpace and was overwhelmed by the comments and thousands of listens in the play count.

Aubrey’s 2010 EP was produced by Grammy winning producer, K.C. Porter and J.B. Eckl at World Beat Productions in California.

Band Members:
K.C. Porter
JB Eckl
Sean Hurley
Paul Gonzales


i doubt if i would put any artist other than me but she's dope as well as the band

" i love this poet"



dope poem right here

"Sharp yuin aint know"


well i had to add another to sharp of my fashion sense,as crawl into getting this blog thing down. but i love boot cut jeans they sorta have this bell bottom effect to em. growing up we always wore super huge baggy jean and super huge tee shirts so after my senior year i switched to boot cuts, my first pair came from old navy blue stone wash and i never turned back. lol but the bottom of boot cuts the way the hang over the top of ya kicks no matter sneaks or (Manley boots)it reminds me of the huge hammy downs i ust to wear so in a sense the growth humbles me. i love boot cuts

Monday, March 7, 2011

" A Poem of My Own" -RelationSHIPS




When we talk about love and the, how do we pass down dating tips, if you had to tell a younger sibling a good comparison something to make it stick. what would be the best way to help them in a relationship, I start with the word. ummmm. relationship. ummm relationship. a relationship, is as real as it gets. like if you switch the a and the l you start off with as REAL as it gets. be real to the other when working that ship. but you can put the a back and put the l where it belongs, and you start with re la or relay. like a race when i start you finish when i stop you go when im down you up when we you win we win when i lose you laugh because where not loser rela. or change the a with a "y" and try to relt, rely on the person to hold thier weight, love is a trip where to souls meet in the middle pick another root then the start a relationship, rely on they wont lie, rely on what you rely on, and bring it to that relationship. if momma told you guys only want one thing. if dad told you to hold on to the one thing. rely on that he who loves you, and the other half of your heart he shall bring, relay back and forth thoughts and sceams. visions and dreams. the best way to be a better team. because out there on the ocean that relationship wont sink. when we work in sink. so i row row row this relationship, slowly up the stream. I'll row row row this relationship, firmly while i dream. I'll row row row this relationship through the storm if you tuck you head from the rain and cheer me on. I'll row this relationship. down the side walk if i had to. built the row to a relationship I'd be glad to. row the relationship through hell, to show Satan it was built for bad times. I'd row this relationship through a horrible melody to prove it ain't affected by bad rhymes. I'd row this boat to your door step to pick you up. if you sleep on this 'ill row this relationship to get you up. big arms for big storms small creek little ponds or big ones, Atlantic, pacific, i row this relationship for a while. its cool not to believe I'll row this relationship though danile. giving up on a life long trip has never been my style. we can get lost in this relationship in the middle of nowhere floating. bread and cider on this relationship in love toasting. this is a humble relationship i need no boasting. paddles in god hands when the relationship coasting. over a wave through the depths of the sea. two seater relationship for you and me. wise man once said " a novice built the arch" and professionals the titanic." but this relationship isn't cool or gigantic. but this is our relationship I'll never take for granted. i row this relationship till it rots leaked start to sink and take damage. then i put it on my back swim to shore to show you the relationship want survivors. just hop in my relation-SHIP i need a co captain to this love provider. leave the anchor at home no motor for this boat. but while on this relationship we take the journey hard strong and slow.

RELATIONSHIPS NEVER SINK WHEN LOVE POWERS THE BOAT - JONES

Sunday, March 6, 2011

Tall Can's



to open up the sharp yuin aint know, situation i gotta start off with timb boots "tall cans" is what we call in Newark, their more like military army cut. their high and reliable depending on the work you do. and if its to look fresh it a do that to. I just love these so i had to post this

"speaking of poets"



Kayo season one "WHO AM I" still get chill everytime i see and here this.

I LOVE THIS POET



Poetry is a huge part of my life and inspires my life and love, So JANETTE the poet is who i'll feature this week maybe this month. But this is the first Poetry Post of my blog (janette the poet)" I will Wait for You"

Saturday, March 5, 2011

"Dandy Lyonz" (dandeelions)



Ok, now im not sure if you are familiar with dandeelions, but there a sort of weed type plant that grows really all over the world. If you from the "hood" you know exactly what i'm talking bout. there the little plants that grows like right in the middle of the side between the cracks in the ground. Growing up where im from those are the only plants/flowers you can get with out paying for and growing them yourself. i remeber we would go to the park and those are mostly what would stick out above the grass, we would pick as many as we could and take it to school the next day for the 2nd grade crush. or if moms wasnt feeling to good that day she deserved so freshly hand picked flowers,



or if they looked like this the urban myth was make a wish if you blow off all the angel hairs your wish a come true. but if you ask any planter gardener flourist its a weed so get rid of it quik. well i looked into just a lil bit more and look what this lil ol weed found mainley in urban america or in dry spots over the world......

Dandelions are especially well-adapted to a modern world of "disturbed habitats," such as lawns and sunny, open places. They were even introduced into the Midwest from Europe to provide food for the imported honeybees in early spring. They now grow virtually worldwide. Dandelions spread further, are more difficult to exterminate, and grow under more under adverse circumstances than most competitors
Unless you remove it completely, it will regenerate. If you break off more pieces than you unearth, the dandelion wins. "What's a dandelion digger for?" a dandelion asked.
"Itís a human invention to help us reproduce," another dandelion replied

The leaves are more nutritious than anything you can buy. They're higher in beta-carotene than carrots. The iron and calcium content is phenomenal, greater than spinach. You also get vitamins B-1, B-2, B-5, B-6, B-12, C, E, P, and D, biotin, inositol, potassium, phosphorus, magnesium, and zinc by using a tasty, free vegetable that grows on virtually every lawn. The root contains the sugar inulin, plus many medicinal substances. supposed to strengthen the entire body, especially the liver and gallbladder ...

but do be advised its a few side effects, and a lot more to look up on. i just found it hella cool loving them so much growing up. just to be told they were weeds and didnt belong to find this out. lol maybe i'm thinking to much.

Love, Love



I guess the best way to open this up is with open heart surgery, LOL. nah in all honesty i have to express my extreme value in love, love for the lord, love for my family, love for myself, love for those who don't love themselves, the love I have for you, yea U. And most of all the love i have for LOVE. It's weird because I loved this hard plenty of times before but it never felt like this. The love i have for you taking your time to read this, helps me understand that god don't make mistakes, he never does and he never will. so having this much love for love cant be a mistake. because you could be doing anything else right now i mean anything but your excepting my expression on my love for love. ( i hope) Love can be describe in to 1 huge thing like the earth, or it could be broking down into 9, hundred thousands billion million little pieces and I'll just wake up everyday trying to figure out the best way to collect every single one of those pieces. The times I've loved, love and FELT as though love didn't love me back, i was mistaking, i didn't understand that love was only raising me, grooming me, helping me under stand how much must go into love because of what you can lose messing with love. They say karma is a devious broad with ruthless regards, well love taught her everything she know. in other words if you take care of karma she take care of you if not that's when the B*tch comes out, i believe love taught karma that because if you don't honor every inch of love you get then you'll lose it, but know love fool no one, fools fool themselves, love never makes you cry it helps you stop, love never makes you leave it a reason to come home, love never make you confused, it helps you remember. but where we go wrong is when we blames things on love or use it as an excuse, you don't want to leave because you have kids don't blame it on all love, you don't want to stop because that person helps you financially , don't blame that on love, you don't want to tell the police he beat you because you love him that's not love even a little bit. take care of it, honor it, respect it, worship it, understand it,dwell in it, dance in it, run in it, tell the world about it. (LOVE OF COURSE) because when your in love you get this feeling that's never been around before. try your best to LOVE, LOVE. and watch how much it loves you back.